Court happened. I was given a month to pay the original ticket and the reinstatement fee for my license. If I can accomplish that then they will drop the charges. It's generous but if I had the $250 the pay for it all I would have taken care of it earlier. However, since it's likely that my sister is going to lose her license I'm going to need to get one. I don't know how this is going to happen, but it has to.
Speaking of her, she got a job. A real job with set hours and a set schedule. She's making less per hour than she did temping but she'll pull in more money on the merit of the fact that she's working more than once a week. Once that's settled and she starts bringing home paychecks she'll be taking over payment of the bills for the house. All of them, which frees up money for me to save. Obviously she doesn't have to help me save money to move but she's going to and I appreciate that.
I've decided that I'm moving back east. I know the area, I know the people, I don't have to learn new bus systems or train routes. That's pretty much what it came down to: where can I get around better without a car? And where do I have a better possibility of finding work. While I realize the whole country is a mess of lost jobs and bad economy I think California has it worse than other places. It's been dealing with this recession longer than the rest of the country has and will probably take longer to pull out. And even then California was going to be another pit stop on my way back to the East Coast. Why delay it anymore? So back to New Jersey it is.
It's still going to take me about forever to get this all worked out though. It's not just a matter of saving money and moving. It's a matter of saving a lot of money and then trying to figure out how to best get my things from here to there. And then saving up for that as well. I don't have much but without a car of my own... It's going to be a process.
Work sucks. I hate it, still. But I'm at a point now where it seems like even finding a new job is impossible. I make so little that I can't even afford to buy new clothes and new clothes would be necessary since I've been out of a professional environment for so long I don't have any professional clothes anymore. Or as the rest of my clothes are slowly wearing out I don't have much in the way of a casual wardrobe either anymore. Of course, that'll change once my sister starts paying bill and I'll have some money again but that's money for moving, not for spending.
So I'm still stuck.
I want to do the moving thing right. I want to go with some money saved up so that I'm not a penniless burden on anyone. I want to go with a wardrobe already started so that I don't have to get another in between job. I want to be able to get an apartment very very soon after getting a job so that I don't have to wait for months to save up the deposit. I want to move into an apartment and be able to buy a bed and a sofa and a desk and chairs and pots and pans and dishes right away so I don't have to sleep on an air mattress, sit on the floor and eat from paper plates.
Am I asking too much? I probably am. It may just be best to cut down to almost nothing, send books to myself in the mail (greyhound has cheap package shipping) and then take a train and show up penniless, live on couches and build up from there. But that's a last resort option.
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